This post contains some foul language.
“Alex,honey, it’s time to get up and get off the sofa.”
Cassy’s pitying voice made me feel sick. Ugh. No Cassy, how about that. Hey? How about THAT!
I was already feeling the waterworks start up again so I buried my face in the pillow and replied with: “Umph.”
“Alex, I’m serious-“
If it wasn’t for the fact that she had allowed me into her house, and the fact that Robin was standing 10 meters away, I would have gotten up, taken the pillow and shoved it down her fat pie-hole. I’m also serious. I’m staying here until I can finally realise that Natalie doesn’t love me.
She hates me.
Robin put his hand on Cassy’s shoulder and said,
Yes, you annoying little cow, leave me alone. I just want to mellow in my own unhappiness.
Robin hit his hand on his head.
“You know Alex, it isn’t just you who’s going through a tough time.”
Oh great, now he’s going to nag me.
“I’ve just found out, Alex, that we’ve been relocated to Moonlight Falls. Asked the Commander if we could stay, but no… and you have to move too, Alex.”
“Good,” I said. “Gotta get away from her. And mind you, Moreno, I am going through the toughest time here.”
“Anders, I think you better shut your-“
“My what? Look, Moreno, you’ve had a pretty fucking easy life so far. Always perfect in the military, got up to a Sargent a lot quicker than I did. Got a best friend and a fiancé in a week. Has 3 kids. Did a mention a fiancé? Oh yes, a fucking fiancé. Me? All I have is my daughter. A girl who doesn’t even care about me. A girl who’s chose her mom. Oh, but who is it to blame, Moreno? Maybe the one who SAID SHE LOVED ME?” My voice went a hysterical high note and Robin out his arm around me. I sobbed into his arms.
“Of course she loves you! She just doesn’t know it!”
“NO” I sobbed “She hates me! Brittney hates me, Cassy hates me, you hate me EVERYONE HATES ME!”
I broke down into hysterics again.
“Now, Anders, pack your bags. We’re going to Moonlight Falls.”
Then I heard a commotion from the door.
Natalie was storming though. She had a tear stained face. Her body froze as she saw my face. Her mouth was in an “o” shape. Cassy stormed through, a moment too late, the words on her lips saying “don’t go into the living room…”
Robin stopped Natalie, glared at Cassy and said, “I think it’s time to leave, Natalie.”
“No! Stay!” Cassy’s voice defiantly answered.
“Y-y-you…” I managed to get out, choking with the effort to break through the shock of seeing my ex-girlfriend here.
“Yes, me!” She yelled. “Me, your loving girlfriend, the one who’s had to sit here and act like I’m the one who doesn’t go through any pain! Like I’m the one who’s always in the wrong! And might i add, the mother of your two children?”
“Yes, you idiot, I’m pregnant. Remember that.. night? Yeah. Happy now?” She yelled and walked out. Cassy stared at her as she left , shaking her head at Robin. I stared at her back for awhile until I mumbled something about leaving to go pack myself, when I heard Cassy say to Robin, “Natalie says she’d live to come to Moonlight Falls with us.”
I pretended I’d never heard.
That was best for me.
It was time, as it is always, to grow my babies up.
Britney is a beautiful YA. She’s decided to go into modelling.
Luka! He’s decided to go into modelling too, even as much as I tried to discourage him, he’s insistent.
Rogan as a child ^_^
Rosalie as a child.
I was lying on my bed, alone, tears streaming down my face, clothes strewn across the room where I had attempted to pack. I had never felt this way about Adrian, Laurent or Jones…but then that was an entirely different situation then.
Then I was the one who had her heart broken.
Not the one breaking the hearts.
But what was the point of calling yourself a strong individual and independent woman (and preaching about it to your kids too) and a proud feminist when here I am crying over a man?
I tried to pick my hand up to wipe my tears but It worked it’s way to the radio to switch it on. Hey, maybe I can listen to some stupid Carly Rae Jempson songs! That’ll cheer me up.
Then of course, as usual, a song comes on that I can just imagine Alex’s sweet voice singing.
Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I’m better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I’m smiling but I’m dying trying not to drag my feet
They say a few drinks will help me to forget her
But after one too many I know that I’ll never
Only they can’t see where this is gonna end
They all think I’m crazy but to me it’s perfect sense
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
‘Cause I’m shouting your name all over town
I’m swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind turn it all around
And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words
And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred
So I dialed her number and confessed to her
I’m still in love but all I heard
Ah, I hate you “The Script”. That band has such a hold on me.
I walked through to the lunge to feel a stinging in my abdomen.
Ok. I can do this. I can do this.
I will do this.
Tears streamed down my face not because of the pain but because of the fact that my baby will come into the world with no idea that his father doesn’t want hm. That he was born at the wrong time, the time when he was just another mistake.
Just another challenge baby.
Cassy stormed in and saw me in pain. She shoved me in her car and we headed to the hospital. I came out holding a baby.
A baby boy called Alexander Anders II.