3 years since I posted Madeline’s last post. 3 years since I thought I should start fresh.
Look how far that got! I’m giggling now because I know that all that I’d thought was good for me was not, and I can’t believe that I continued to push myself to continue a story I didn’t really like – because I had become, dear reader, a person I didn’t really like.
I was a liar. I was a very sad little girl who didn’t like herself very much. I was someone who was struggling with family fights, puberty and just general angst. Lonely, I wanted to fit in. Desperately.
So I lied. I told horrid fibs and honestly, I’ve never regretted anything more. I cringe each time I think about it. I’ve tried to make amends, but I’ve never really meant it. Because somehow I still felt justified in what I’d done.
I don’t know what changed me, I don’t know what made me think twice. I guess it was when I started working out, doing yoga, eating well and caring for myself – that was when I realised that one cannot simply just say what they want to and expect no consequences for one’s actions.
But, I’m glad to say that I’ve passed it now. I don’t believe that I should hold myself over my actions permanently – especially, considering I was barely 14. I’m turning 17 later this year. I’ve found myself a good group of friends. I’ve come to terms with who I am. I have a strong family relationship.
So now thatI’ve learnt how to be a stable, functioning member of society, I’d like the implore you all to read my new story: https://thehamiltonsimslegacy.wordpress.com/
If you’d like to talk to me, don’t hesitate to email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I’d love to catch up.